::Fairy On The Moon::

i feel so bloody inferior
sorry fer the usage of the profanity but sometimes there just aint a better word to describe stuff like that unless u count the F word.
so wad if i was from rjc. RAFFLES JUNIOR COLLEGE. so wad??? so wad so wad so wad so wad. at the end of the day it means nuthing. it really means bloody nuthing. Its just a damnn name a damn label and so damn meaningless.

i tot tt now i was not studying anymore, i cld be over and done with tt competition shit but apparently im not, Coz life is jus one f**king competition. i feel bloody stressed now coz i HAVE to compete to keep my job. how sad is tt? it dosent help tt im the worst at my job. even Gladys is better than me. And i would be lying if i said i didnt feel inferior coz i do. very much. Now im getting lesser and lesser shifts coz im soo majorly lousy and soon ill find myself without a job. Looks like out of the pan becums out of the job. maybethis work isnt cut out fer me. It kinda sucks coz i was the one who intro-ed this place to pple in the first place, and now i jus find myself on the losing end. Losing is right. losing my job. losing my mind. And im quite hard up fer cash now so it dosent help i dun get any shifts kinda crap u noe? Its a f**king fact lor. Im jus so upset now. this is damn lame. why do i have to compete with others jus to keep my position. Why am i alwaes so damn lousy in everything i do? who gives a damnn whether im frm rjc at all. Who gives a damn when i fail my a levels. Why muz i alwaes be a sotong? why cant i do anything right? why do i alwaes give in? why do i alwaes give way? WHY DO I ALWAES HAVE TO BE SO DAMN LOUSY! WHY?? WHY??
its just you Dawn.
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?
WHY DO I KEEP SCREWING UP?
WHY DO I HAVE TO BE SO LOUSY?

oh man...whos gonna give me the F**King answers now??

IN WHICH AREA WILL I EVER SUCEED?
WHEN WILL I DO ANYTHIN RIGHT?
WHEN WILL I STOP BEING SUCH A SCREW UP?

i tink something is seriously wrong with me...

dawn fairy on the moon at 1/27/2003

Sunday, January 26, 2003

i know im gona becum item 86 soon. in case no one noes wad item 86 is...its this standard thing they have in all restaurants, in the f and b line. It means wen a certain food item is unavaliable, meaning tt its either gone or out of stock. So when someone says ure the item 86, it means ur fired. ure gone. ure missing.

and the manager at ochos hires and fires pple like no ones business. its damnn scary. i heard tt before we were employed, he fired some pple. JUST BEFORE we were employed. man. And he keeps threatening us. HE said tt even tho he likes us, if we r weaker, we'll have to go lor. Its like a competition out there to keep our jobs. and its making me stressed
i had a really rough day at work. i was soo busy i almost freaked and i cant handle the stress. everyone is given their own responsibility and each one muz do their part, and wen a collegue dosent do his or her part of the job, u have to do it for him, and then the thing is ure still busy carrying out ur own responsibilties and u have even more to do. it makes u stressed and pissed coz there u r so busy doing ur own part, and wen someone is irresponsible, it gives u ALOT of trouble too. it makes u wanna jus yell at someone. And sometimes wen it gets busy things get heated up and wen thing go wrong, theres alot of blame pushing going around.
and it gets stressful. stressful. stressful. todae i just felt like yelling at some pple and killing some pple, but i had to control myself ocz i din want things to get unpleasant. Some of my collegues were apparently very stressed as well n were showing it, but i tried to control, even tho i was so stressed
its like handling too many things at one go
anywae..im prob gona get fired
but i hope not

i saw him jus the other day by chance. i just bumped into him! (after i got my horrid haircut) and he actually grinned at me and said hi !!!! i was damnn mortified wen i saw him coz my hair was looking so bad and i was on the way to get a hat! and in the end we chatted a while, but i was feeling damnn embarrased abt my hair. aNYWAE I DUN deny tt i WASNT happy tt he talked to me or said hi to me! :O) heh..and even tho i noe we cum frm different worlds..but still...

wake up dawn...

hes never gonna like you

never

ever

oh well

DARN

:O(

dawn fairy on the moon at 1/26/2003

Tuesday, January 21, 2003

but that dosent stop me from missing him....

.........KINDA
not alot ya..but just a teeny little bit ok?

dawn fairy on the moon at 1/21/2003

i am quite sure with my new hairstyle now..he shure aint gona even look at me twice!

dawn fairy on the moon at 1/21/2003

i just chopped of my locks
now i look like
C R A P
i mean it
i really look like C R A P. i dun look like me anymore. i told the dumb hairdresser to give me a new style, and she cut it wrongly..so it looks shitty now. i even had to go to a few saloons todae to RE-DO my hairin order to save it. EVen all the hairstylists from all the diff saloons who did my hair said it was badly done, and tt it looked weird. WOW. and i have this shaggy dog fringe now..( the f4 zai zai kind of fringe) which kinda makes me look like a retard. i have to pin it all up and wait fer it to grow back. i am going to wait a few months and maybe re cut my hair again. the style is sad, and its too short to really save it. When i tink abt how long my hair was last time (touching the waist) i feel really realli sad. Its all gone and gona take a hellavu long time to grow back! i look damn stupid. the day i find a hairstylist i like the day i rejoice. my hair looks damn heavy now also. Not my fault also. my mum forced me to cut. to tink chinese new year is next week..i kinda shudder to think..i mean with hair like this..how am i gona face the world? i tink i better start investing in some good hair products and accesories. to tink the hair cut was sooooo expensive somemore. i am gona cut my hair at those neighbourhood 8 bucks next time. it might be even better. i realie regret cutting to much of my hair. wad the hell was i tinking of???!!??! i tried to show the hairdresser this nice pic of this cute jap gal hopin i wld look vaguely like her, but now i realie look FARFAR FAR FAr from it. like totally. i look like austen power's twin sis. i wish i looked like me again
i wanna look like me again
this is not DAWN.....
its scary how i almost can't recognise the face in the mirror anymore...

i just wanna look like ME..

dawn fairy on the moon at 1/21/2003

Monday, January 20, 2003

i admit i am kinda sad coz i wont be seeing him next week. I know it sounds stupid but i can't help it. I havent seen him fer a few daes...or rather haven seen him up close and talked to him fer a few daes and i tink im kinda starting to miss him. I think its crazy, and i think im crazy. WHY??? WHY?? WHY??? wad is it abt him? he aint even good looking ( i mean even gladys dosent think so) and hes like SOOOOOOOOOOO dao and has bad bad bad english...but why is it tt im feeling so disappointed just coz i cant see him fer one whole week? why? and i admit im kinda sad coz Gladys will get to see him and i wont. sighz.. i know im pathetic. .Gee..i really cant help it. how can i even sort of miss someone i hardly noe or hardly even talk to?? hmm..

on the way home from work todae, i was in the mrt thinking alot. i was kinda upset abt alot of stuff, and suddenly it really hit me in the face. i realised that im actually an unhappy person inside. It takes alot fer me to admit this. i guess maybe i always knew but i never wanted to acknowledge it, or always chose to ignore this fact.i mean it just hit me sqaurely in the face. i think that is really one of my main problems. despite how i always choose to laugh things off, or take things easy, or crack jokes, or laugh, or smile, or have fun, i guess somewhere deep inside there remains an unhappy child. Its not like my laughter and smiles are fake but i realise that these r just fer the moment, and after this moment fades away, i am left with a feeling of emptiness....a deep rooted feeling of unhappiness. i have got alot of things in life to be thankful for, and i have alot of fun, but somehow i just feel that real joy is missing. And if i just had one wish in my life, i wanna wish fer true and lasting happiness. Sounds idealistic huh? Considering the world we live in today, it sounds like a naive and foolish thought. its true there are times wen i laugh i feel happy but all this is just so temporary...its never permanent. And for a really long time in my life, ihate to say this..but i havent really feel a pure feeling of euphoria, or even joy yet. ALot of people will tell me that its only in God that i will feel pure joy and my emptiness will fade away..and i really hate to say this..but i havent felt that way in a long time..honestly. And sometimes i ask God abt it,but somehow i never got the answer---yet. Sometimes it seems that happiness is so near..but yet so far, so elusive..i wonder if this is just my own making. i guess majority of my troubles and pains could be mostly self-inflicted. I mean i think i really do hurt myself alot, sometimes unintentionally, but also sometimes deliberately. There r alot of things that i think abt or do, tt arent really necessary, but it results in me getting hurt. My god, i cant believe im finally admitting that im actually an unhappy person inside. i normally wldnt say this to anyone. And i guess no one really knows. I mean sometimes pple ask u if ure happy, and u just go yea fer the sake of saying yea, or if they ask u if ure unhappy u cant possible say yeah right? ( tis is getting a tad bit confusing) ok..i tink if i continue to tink abt this ill get get more moody so end of this topic..fer now

todae at work started out to be quite a disaster. MAn i dropped 3 cups todae (full of water) and all the water started flowing out..well ...gushing out rather! and some spashed to the customer. (luckily none of the glasses broke!) i was sooo totally mortifed, i mean wehn i saw everything flowing onto the floor, it was like this scene frm my worst nightmares playing out ( in slow motion) right before my eyes, i cant tell u how horrified and shocked i was. And to make things worse, pple in the restaurant saw, and were starting! i was so MALU-ated! i just totally wanted to die on the spot! it was SOO humiliating. I apologised to the customer, but in the end he apologised to me! he said it was his fault, which was partly true... coz i was giving them the glasses of water to drink, and his hand suddenly shot of and kinda knocked against the tray, which caused to to lose balance and topple over! Gee, i was so freaked tt i kept asking carol if i wld be fired. luckily no one made a big issue abt it! but i dont tink they will forget abt it fer sometime!
however something realie nice happened tonite too! there was this lady i served, and before she left, she asked wad my name was. so i told her. then i got realie freaked coz i she looked fieree,and i tot she was gona complain abt me. So i was like asking her.." u arent realie gona complain abt me rite?" and she laughed and said" if u havent done anything wrong why shld i? "den i was like " so how cum u asked fer my name?" and she was like.." oh..just asking"

anywae it turned out tt in the end, she and her husband were filling up some survey form fer the restaurant, and then i took a peek at it. and i freaked wen i saw my name..coz i tot it might be something horrid, ( she did look fierce!) but in the end, it turned out to be something positive! she wrote something like "dawn is a nice, cheerful, friendly, courteous and polite girl and we enjoyed being served by her" i was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO relieved wen i saw that can! and it made my disasterous nite alot more pleasant! YAYYY! anywae i was really surprised coz i realli didnt do much fer her or give her special treatment or i didnt recall being nice to her anywae! guess maybe pple r watching u as u do ur work! next time i muz be more aware..heh ! :OP alrite, anywae it was a pretty much uneventful nite, we were just soo busy thsat we kept working and working and time really flew, and before we knew it, it was closing time! ah well, anywae i wont be working there the whole of next week due to an overschedule of pple. next time im gona be damn kiasu and give my schedule super early! :OP

dawn fairy on the moon at 1/20/2003

Saturday, January 18, 2003

ok i admit it..i did walk past THAT PLACE ( from a distance) today just hoping i cld catch a glimpse of HIM. But no i do not like him. really. anywae, the sight of him did not make my heart jump. and i was only trying to look at him from a distance so he wldnt see me and realise i was looking. and i didnt see much anywae
only the back view. but no i do not like him. NO.NO. NO. okay ....reasons why i do not like him.....
1) he is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO super beng beng beng and did i just say beng?
2) his english is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO bad i cant even understand him sometimes
3) HE IS DAMN DAO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
4) his hair cannot make it.....
5) i hate his nose. its really ugly. really really really
6) he IS PALE..almost lily white..at least he is fairer then me!
7) he is not in the least bit eloquent, and cant seem to carry out a decent conversation

there.. these r just a few reasons why i DO NOT LIKE HIM. FINE i did walk past frm a distance todae just to see if i cld catch a glimpse of him, and yes i was a TEENy bit envious wen gladys said he grinned at her, but that dosent mean anything at all!! besides he is so not my kind and i am so not his kind. And pLUS i am alwaes the matchmaker here and matchmakers r never meant to be matched! besides i feel so DAMN awkward wen i talk to him..( if we talk and we hardly do talk anywae)
ok..this is getting abit ridiculous?? why am i even talking abt this? i muz be mad. okay end of story dawn..FULL STOP

dawn fairy on the moon at 1/18/2003

Tuesday, January 14, 2003

you will probabaly never get to see this. which is just as well. coz i dun realie want you to. im just saying all this now coz i just wanna get it out..to make myself better. no one needs to see this..these are words that i really want to say to you, words that are buried deep inside my heart, and words that ive never dared to speak to you. What was stopping me? fear...
fear coz i know perhaps you might get annoyed with me? like again?

last night, when we were talking, i sensed u were avoiding that topic. i know you wanna find a way to solve this problem, but dont u understand? there is no way. not since the day our lives changed. the words u said to me, so nice, so sweet, but dont u understand that its gonna be hard for me to believe what u say now, since i admitted to me in the past that most of it wasnt sincere. i noe what u said was fer my own good, it was to make me feel better. YOur words are so nice to hear, so sweet, But what's the use of it if it isnt sincere? I didnt dare to say this to you on sunday, but though i tell you everything is ok, it isnt. im still really hurt, and how can anything change that? You knew wadever u did i wld forgive u. but this time its different. If everything is alright then why is there still this insistent nagging feeling in my heart? What you did to me carved a great deep wound upon my heart, and will forever leave a scar there. It is so ironic while ure asking me to have faith and to trust, there wasnt actually anything to trust in, nor have faith in. How can u have faith or trust in something that wasnt true in the first place? even when we talked there was this burning sensation in my heart.. i was really hurt. There is something you must understand and that is things can never be the same as before. never.

you think this is getting abit ridiculous. guess wad? so do i. dont u think i want to get this over and done with? but i cant. and why? coz there is this constant nagging feeling in my heart and my mind. You ask me not to think so much. SO i try not to. But it keeps creeping back into my thoughts, constantly flitting through my mind like a furtive shadow, appearing, then diminshing. Its driving me nuts.
i guess there muz be a reason fer all this to happen... its not ur fault. Im not blaming u anymore. But i cant forget this. I wanna try to forgive and forget. i wanna try to think of this as the past, and to put it behind me, but i cant forget it as easily as you can and you should know best why. im tired of our constant arguments, and us irritating the hell outta each other. I know u have alot of patience, u put alot of effort wen it cums to me, i noes im difficult to deal with, but i hope u understand why, the basis fer all if this. i will never, i can never stop feeling insecure. U can't help me with this. i have to help myself with this. i will never stop doubting, or feeling unsure...u may think everything is ok now, but i dont. i dont. i dont, coz my heart is telling me its not ok. its not. so tell me what to do. Since u think u can solve anything, solve this? im at my wits end..

dawn fairy on the moon at 1/14/2003

Its been One weEK...sinCe i started working! MAN it aint an easy job at all. waitressing sucks big time ok. Its a thankless job. u get treated like a slave, ure lowly paid and besides my legs r full of blisters and they're aching so bad i have to rub hot menthol cream every nite! but more details on tt later....

was at centro last thurs nite! wasnt supposed to go coz i had work but the boss was feeling kind so he let me off. He even gave me a slice of apple pie (which sucked) I gave him this pathetic look and asked if i cld have one, so he gave it to me. HAHA...first time! i was craving after it fer sometime, but it wasnt tt nice to eat anywae! anywae centro is pretty cool..ahaha..the lighting aint bad at all. There r certain points of time where the light gets kinda bright so u can see the pple's faces clearly ( normally concealed in total darkness) so u noe that that handsome prince dancing away ( or so u tot), actually looks like a toad in proper light. Its totally practical, coz u'll get to pick out the real eye candy, and eliminate the horrid toads that appear dashing only in totally darkness. There was quite some eye candy yesterdae, ( or so i tot) haha..but by the end of the nite, i was in a pretty anti guy mood. dunno why also! i just cant stand it wen some guys behave like totally perverts and keep edging closer to u, or trying to touch u or God knows wad else. I personally find it an evasion of personal space.... The worst is wen pple keep shoving and nudging u. Its realie like murder of the dance floor. However despite the irritating crowd, the music reALI wasnt bad at all! there was this song..i duno wad its called but i realie cant get it out of my head now..its very..hmmm..i dunno...very ..its not exactly like damn nice but its pretty erm...i duno..just unique? it gave me this strange feeling wen i heard it, but i kinda liked that feeling! hmm.now i dont even noe was its called so i cant download it! anywae i wldnt mind going back to centro again coz its POSH POSH POSH...but im actually kinda underaged!

anywae back to my job..or shall i say jobs. well so far ive been feeling more bored as the days fly past! and i kinda tired of lookin at all that food and not being able to pinch some. If u tink that waitresses get to eat all that yummy food ( like i thought at first) u r SOOOOOOO wrong abt that! now i noe why waitresses r usually thin. if the place provides staff meals, u shld tink twice abt taking them. The food is sooo gross that sometimes i find it difficult to imagine EVEN my dog eating that. of coz if my supervisor hears abt this i am SO dead la. Waitressing is a dirty job too, ya gotta clean tables and clear dirty plates, and some pple r realie sloppy eaters ( i am) so it makes ur job hell. and some customers can be so demanding u feel like stabbing them. ( i am) now i noe this is truly karma..(sob) Anywae as fer my job in tanglin mall, sometimes i tink its kinda hilarious. My supervisor is a joke in himself. i nickname him the "jing mao shi wang" (translation: the golden haired lion king) if u see his hair u'll noe wad i mean. i mean hes totally funny la. His hair is like gravity defying, its in a realie weird style, its like a cross between elvis presley, austen powers, sonic the hedgehog and more, its pretty indescribable! and he has this weird contacts (bluish grey???) which make him look strange, i just feel like laughing each time i look at him. and the fact tt he tinks hes damn cool ( like the way he saunters here and there) is pretty funny too. there was this other worker i saw todae tt was realie funny too. He has this straight rebonded hair ( rebonded?!??!?! on a guy?!?!?!?), its dyed goldenish brown, its kinda long ( ok think f4 or 5566 or jay chou) and it looks strange( not as weird as vaness tho) the pple there nickname him jay chou..haha i can see why...The cooks over there r hilarious too. Number one, is they all look hilarious, ( mostly ah peks) and secondly, they makes realie funny comments. stupid but funny comments. they r kinda buaya-ish as well, as they keep asking idiotic questions like, "so u got boyfren or not ah" "what type of guys u like"..blah blah and i either laugh it off or ignore. And the onli good thing abt working there is tt my chinese has gotta improve coz i keep conversing with them in chinese. some of them dont realie understand english, and some of them r like those typical " jiang hua yu" ah bengs. ANywae i find doing all those chores totally tiring and its like carrying hot plates all dae kinda gets very taxing after a while. Plus now ive seen wad the kitchen is like, im shure shunning the food man. i mean on the first dae alone i already found a few baby cockroaches like running anrd, and one even ran into the salad bar thingy. i was so disgusted and the cleaner was nonchalently telling me it happens all the time. SIgh. i pity the poor gullible customers. thou i admit the food looks pretty good...but man..once uve seen the kitchen its like a complete turn off can..

chjimes is pretty ok. we get mostly caucasian customers. my collegues r mostly malays so its like a complete switch in e sense tt i dun use chinese there. the waitresses there r realie experienced so i feel like a clumsy fool beside them. Gladys was complaing abt how inferior she felt next to this other staff coz she was like stick thin. anywae i still keep geting the table number wrong and occasionally i serve the wrong customer. Its utterly embarassing. However i do try to smile wen i serve customers, no matter how unfrendly they r..i dun wanna get fired frm my job man. The supervisor there dosent look as comical as the tanglin mall job and my fellow collegues look more normal...haha so i have no one to amuse myself with :OP ok..ok..i noe im being evil but i CANT HELP IT. The food at that places (its called OCHOS, its a spanish restaurant) looks pretty good. Of coz as usual, the kitchen looks like crap,and even the toilets in chijmes looks and smells better! i swear...no joke. but still the food looks SOOOO tempting. the customers there r pretty rich too, like one nite's bill can come up to 300 plus and practically all pay with credit cards. nut they can be stingy when it comes to tips!

anywaez, i tink i shood be going soon..i need some sleep. ive been so TIred lately,and i feel that i severely lack sleep. its like im working everydae, and my job requires me to stand and walk alot so its tiring. if i dont lose some weight at the end of the month ill kill myself man.. :Op More updatEs later then!

dawn fairy on the moon at 1/14/2003

Sunday, January 05, 2003

WoOhOOo...i start workin tmr!! yayYYY...i am in serious need of the cash. :Op i am currently supporting myself..aint being supportedby family anymore..sobz..so young and i have to face the realities of adulthood already!

after a long and relentless search, me and gladys finally found some jobs! man...we've been at it fer the past God knows how many weeks and now its like finally all the job offers r flooding in! haha..so now im spoilt fer choices..like which job the choose and stuff. All the jobs are waitressing jobs. i mean times r bad la, so not much choice. i am currently going to be juggling 3 jobs! pretty tough huh, but its all part time jobs, no fixed time nor schedules, and i figure any opportunity to earn money is good money, After a tough struggle, the jobless two ( me and Gladys) have FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY managed to find jobs! phew! Some pple actually tink waitressing is pretty low class, but i tinkits a really good experience fer me. Its probabaly tougher than an office job, in a sense that is dirty and tiring work, compared to just sitting arnd in an aircon room filing ur nails, and the pay is probably lower, but i guess i mean, its probabaly more interesting, and its an experience u dont get all the time! i figured it aint bad too since i have someone to accompany me too! haha..but sadly we'll be in different shifts. i guess the manager dosent wanna put us together coz he knows we'll prob end up chatting, slackin and neglecting duties!

anywae im kinda nervous abt startin the job. i sure hope i dont break any plates..geez...ill prob have to cut it frm my pay :P Oh yea and i hope they dont play some cheesy music there or ill go nuts! i think the chijmes job is probabaly the coolest coz its like a spanish restaurant, manager dosent seem too horrid, the pay is the highest! yesh...i think the pay is important. Afteri deduct food, transport, and CPF ill probabaly be earning like peanuts man, so i need to find a better paying job. Gladys and I have decided that our ultimate aim working in this places, is to UPGRADE OURSELVES..the more places we work, the more experience we get and thus the more chances of getting upgraded. We're hoping to be upgraded to the Equinox..haha. if we ever do we'll probabaly go fer a big treat, and we made an agreement to have a major eating fest if we survive one month of this job! ( but seeing how we'll be facing food like EVERYDAY i dun tink we'll be ready to face food again after a month!)

hmm so its finally a NEW YEAR! yahoo...but it aint realie feel different to me..gee..haha..New years' eve was another experience altogether man. Me, Lee Min and gang went to Zouk. normally we pretty much enjoy zouk, but last NEw year's was something altogether man! i mean we went to zouk expecting a good experience ( after milk bar on xmas eve...URGH...dun even wanna think abt it..they played like wad..RETRO???) anywae zouk turned out to be quite a flop coz they were PLAYING TRANCE ...some bloody trance..ok..it wasnt even trance..it wasnt even music can. it was something that didnt sound like anything. It was pure crap la. The Dj was damn lousy and obviously sooo clueless. i mean its like after sometime pple started clearing the dance floor (coz the music was such a turn off!) the dance floor was emptying out except fer a few weird fanatics ( who were prob under the influence of drugs, or so they appeared to be) and the Dj himself was obviously the only one enjoying his music ( if thats what u call it!) and was obviously in a trance. Now i know why they call it trance. goodness. To top things off, Lee min got sick, so she decided to leave the place to go to the grand copthorne opposite to rest. ( and there wasnt even an hot guys at all!!! haha) anywae....the whole place was simply pretty packed. ANywae, i mean this probably sounds sad but the music at zouk was SOOOOOOO bad that it made milk bar on Xmas eve look good. Man..i admit milkbar wasnt tt bad ( after zouk) but still both werent realie my kinda music..
i prefer zouk on wednesdays, like mambo nite. And Milk Bar was quite a mistake anywae, and i shant even bother going into details WHY! ANywae, after Zouk, all of us decided to go to grand copthorn opposite to chill where a very sick looking lee min was lying on a couch mumbling some stuff. The toilet of copthorne was GROSS Can. i sinks were clogged with puke in a very gross bownish dunno wad colour. I mean the pple there muz get alot of this crap man. They're just beside zouk and im shure lotsa the late nite clubbers muz hang anrd there using the toilets and puking their guts out. Its gross and i feel sorry fer the cleaners. :OP. anywae the fun part was we decided to bunk over at copthorne. we went to this deserted part of the lobby, and were chatting at first, And soon after we got pretty tired and dozed off on the sofas there. BEsides i was pretty broke , so i decided i might as well stay out the entire nite, and catch a bus home next morning, rather then taking a taxi. We had brekkie at seven eleven
quite sad la come to tink of it. it was NEw years dae and i had a sad slice of pizza frm seven eleven that tasted like hard mouldy bread dipped in tomato sauce. Then at seven o clock i catched the bus home. It felt pretty weird like coming home SO EARLY in the morning , esp in ur party clothes and all. My mum opened the door and looked rather surprised i wss out there. I wunder if she even knew i stayed out the nite..hah.. anywae, NEw years dae was spent with my family!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! now see wad a gooood gal i still am :O)

haha..well thats just the new years experience. Of coz we swore never ever to go zouk again during new year! unless the replace the screwed up Dj,. i rather go somewhere else!

alritey..i tink i better get going soon. COz ive got a MAJOR JOB To do tmr! exciting huh! i hope i dun like screw my job up. ive this tendency to screw up like everything i do! gee!

dawn fairy on the moon at 1/05/2003